I Had A Dream


For those of you who haven't read the beginning of my story you might want to check it out. I was misdiagnosed, mistreated and ignored. NO ONE believed I was actually sick. Because doctors, friends and family all told me there was nothing wrong it was very difficult for me to believe anything else. Yes I was bleeding terribly, in the worst pain imaginable and losing weight quickly. BUT, everyone insisted it was all in my head.

One night I had a dream. I remember this dream like I had it last night. The trees, water, bridge and Trish. In order for this to make sense I should tell you who Trish is or was. Patricia Silver was an amazing women, Professor and advocate for people with learning disabilities. She was the mother of my best friend Jessica Silver. I grew up with Jessica. We went to pre-school, elementary, middle school, high school and we were collage roommates. Trish has been a part of my life since I can remember.

Trish died of ovarian cancer on June 20, 2003. She left us before she could see her daughter walk down the isle or meet her beautiful grandson Eli. I was there the day Trish was told she had ovarian cancer. She was at the hospital with no idea that cancer was even on the table. Needless to say this was a devastating diagnosis. By the time the cancer was discovered it had spread and even though she fought as hard as she could she lost her battle.

In my dream I was walking over a bridge. Everything was gray. There were trees, water, grass but it was all gray. The bridge I was walking on was one of those that arches up in the middle. When I was at the middle there was Trish. She was holding a beautiful baby boy. At the time Jessica was 8 months pregnant and the baby Trish was holding was her grandson. She walked with me while she was holding the baby and told me, kindly, that I had cancer. She talked to me about how sad she was that she would never get to really hold her grandson, spend time with him and be the spectacular grandmother she would have been. Trish assured me that no matter how scary it was I needed to save my life and could not afford to continuing following the doctors instructions.

I know this sounds fictional but I swear on everything that is dear to me its true. The next day I went to the ER. This is not something I talk about much because it makes me sad. I miss her. Jessica's son is so amazing as is she. They deserve to have Trish in their lives. And, I owe my life to her!



32 comments:

Lynda said...

Wow - what a breathtaking story. She sounds like she was an amazing woman.

Somewhere In Between said...

That is amazing. And truly heartbreaking - but I am glad that you listened to yourself, and to Trish and took control of your situation. Good luck with your continued treatments!!

Eudae-mamia said...

Such a touching story. A guardian angel you have there. Good for you for being your best advocate. I'm just so sorry you had to go through so much to get there.

Em

T said...

once more, proof that God sends angels to protect us - and to help us protect ourselves.

thanks for dropping by my blog last week - it's taking me awhile to get my head out of the sand and return the favor... I'm glad I waited long enough to see this very post!

Charlene said...

Wow, Meaghan! What an incredile story. I had stage 3 cervical cancer, however, my doctor caught it early. I also have another missed diagnosis story that kept me ill for nearly 2 years. A word to the wise to keep looking if you know your body is sick and your doctor is giving the brush off. Thanks for visiting my blog!

Allison said...

Dreams are powerful and I have always believed that! That just proves that there are guardian angels out there!

AngiDe- Nana's Box said...

Whoa, what a touching story. Thank you for sharing something that is so private and personal.

Angie
www.nanasboxnonprofit.blogspot.com

Gary Rith Pottery Blog said...

This is a pretty incredible blog, so much to think about. Thanks for visiting mine!

Live.Love.Eat said...

WOW. Meaghan, that story is incredible. I am so sorry for everything you have had to endure!!! You are an inspiration.

imbeingheldhostage said...

WOW. I have NO problem believing you. I have had a few fantastic experiences in "dreams", one of which when I knew I saw my daughter before I even knew I was pregnant. What an awesome experience and I think it's wonderful you posted it. Now I have to read more...

Anonymous said...

Jess's Mom! Its been so long since seeing her face, but I remember it so well from sports events at Mohawk.

What an amazing dream.

-Rena

(Hugs to Jess if she's reading)

Bethany said...

I had an experience similar, but not with the cancer, it was with a miscarriage. I understand what it's like to have someone from beyond reach back and touch and prepare you for what you're about to go through. She's still advocating in the only way she now can. That's such an amazing story! It is sad, but it's also a very, very beautiful thing that you blessed to have experienced!

Jaime said...

what a wonderful story to share. She sounds like a wonderful woman. I'm so glad she could help you, and that you listened to her advice.

Lindsay said...

Wow...
That is amazing.

I have had a few really intense dreams since I was diagnosed. It's such a crazy experience.

Cheryl said...

Wow,the things you are going thru. I am so glad you didn't listen to the Doc's and went further. I do not know why people say it is all in your head, that is the saddest thing to hear from loved ones. Thank you for stopping by 4pamperedpaws and leaving a comment. I would be happy to send your fur babie a treat! Just let me know what flavor he/she would prefer. Hang in there and get healthy. Thanks again for stopping by.
Cheryl

Debbie Y. said...

What an amazing story, of course Trish came to you and told you what you needed to do so there would not be another needless death over misdiagnoses.

I wasn diagnosed with fast growing pre-uterine cancer when I was 34. I asked the doc if I could wait to have surgery and try to have another kid. He said if it was his wife he would tell her to have the hysterectomy the next day. I did. I have never regretted his advise and counsel.

I am glad you kicked cancer's ass!

Anonymous said...

Wow, Holly Shit- wait can I swear? But really do I have another word? I logged on expecting to celebrate life, my best friends life (no let me change that my sister’s life) and then I see my mother. The one who never made it- my mother who lost her life to this disease, and I say this disease because cancer should not be broken up into areas of the body, because the effects are the same as well as the treatments, no matter what cancer you have you still face death and last time I checked there are not separate ribbons for death. I don’t really want to dwell on death here, what I want to do is celebrate life, and in this case my best friends life, As many of you know Megs is a wonderful person, but lately has felt unappreciated, Megs all I can offer you here is knowledge, You have the ability to make others better people and I know you have done this for me, you offer sound and solid advice and provided yourself as a great friend even in your darkest of hours and maybe in the end there will be a payoff for you but for now I am sorry but the payoffs belong to your friends. I love you
Jess

Becky :) said...

WOW!!! That is so amazing. To have a dream that is so clear and telling.
I'm glad that you had the dream and fought against everything the dr's were saying.

~alison said...

Unbelievable! That is so incredibly powerful! Dreams can reveal so much.

Thank God you had that dream and LISTENED to it!

Pennies In My Pocket said...

W.O.W.! Doesn't sound fictional at all...sounds like a miracle. This is an amazing story that brings tears to the eyes.

~melody~

Hopesrising said...

First time reading your blog and although I don't have cervical cancer..I lived through stage 4 non hodgkins lymphoma and was treated three times.
Amazingly I was told the same thing that it was all in my head how I felt. It wasn't till I found a mass on the left side of my face in front of my ear. That I decided to take charge and push to see a plastic surgeon. The rest its history. But the cancer was in my head and I was really ill. So that said. It got the surgeons attention fast. But he agreed that my cancer was advanced by blood work. I was sick and it validated everything that I was told. However doctors saying its all in our head forever reason. Is just wrong. Its harmful.
Once I got to an oncologist he looked back at my history and told me being dxed at 42 was young but he felt I should of been dxed at 38.Reguardless he agreed you don't tell patients its in there head.
I am so glad you listened to your *Gut* on this .
I am so glad you had someone like Trish in your life. What a blessing she was.And dreams sometimes bring us to where we need to be.
Thanks so much for sharing your story.

Michele said...

Wow. I love stories like this! It gives me goosebumps!

Tabitha Blue said...

Wow, such an incredible story. You can make it through!

Michelle said...

Wow, that is powerful!

WheresMyAngels said...

My cousin just went thru the same thing. The doctors ignored her pain and told her it was in her head. She passed away this year from cancer and was only 42.

I'm glad that you had such a good friend who was able to warn you from another world.

Khadra said...

Doesnt sound fictional to me. You are lucky to have had this lady in your life. She obviously did, and does still, care a lot for you.

Author Patricia Pickett said...

This post just brought tears to my eyes. I believe you. I had a guardian angel at the time I was fighting my cervical cancer also, and she was my friends who had passed. Wow....I can't tell you how similar this story is to mine.. Thanks for sharing! Maybe I'll be able to open up about my experiences also...

Katy Lin :) said...

wow! what an amazing story! :) thanks for sharing this!

Hippie Family... said...

wow, that's amazing. Thanks for coming to our site today. It's odd, its my anniversary and my Godmothers birthday, who died from cancer too. Strange how things happen.
thanks for coming by, your site is amazing and I will be back for sure.
Tricia

Pseudonymous High School Teacher said...

That is an amazing story. I've always believed that our passed loved ones can come and talk to us in our dreams.

Marnellie said...

what an inspiring story you have! thanks for dropping by my blog. take care and congratulations on your new business!

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