Many people are confused yet inspired by my attitude towards my battle with cancer. I am chipper, up beat, smiling & excited when I talk about what happened to me. Don't get me wrong, there are many days when I feel ANGRY, sad and exhausted but I fight through those feelings and leave them as quickly as I can. No matter how pissed off I am I will never be able to change what happened but I have the absolute power to change what is happening.
I know many people are familiar with the Serenity prayer:
God Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I cannot change
Courage to change the things I can
And the Wisdom to know the difference.
I say this prayer to myself on a daily basis and I live my life by it. Family and friends would understand if I gave myself a daily pitty party, cried a lot, lashed out with anger. Cancer gives me permission to deal with it any way I wish. But I have control over that. I think many people forget that. You cannot do anything about what is in the past but you can stop cancer from stealing anymore of your life by dealing with it in the most positive way possible for you.
Don't get me wrong. If you have/had cancer and are reading this I bet you are a little annoyed. I HATE when people tell me how to deal with my cancer. I HATE when people tell me to look at the bright side of things. That is not what I am saying. I am saying:
TELL CANCER TO F$*K OFF.
TELL IT THIS IS YOUR LIFE AND YOU WILL NOT LET IT TAKE ONE MORE THING FROM YOU!
TAKE CONTROL BACK AND RUN YOUR LIFE!
I want to be happy. I want all the things my friends and family have. I want health, family, love, respect, education, all of it. If I take any other attitude than a positive upbeat one I won't get those things. I will get lost in my own self pitty. I will linger in the "what if's". I will get lost in they "why me". I will forget about the many years that lay ahead of me because I am so focused on the time I fought for my life. I fought for my life for a reason, TO LIVE IT. So that is exactly what I am going to do.
P.S. I am being featured on a blog today: Nana's Box