tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post2106510688057812187..comments2024-03-27T10:17:39.781-07:00Comments on I Kicked Cancer's Ass: BATTLE WOUNDSMeaghanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09225824099156032765noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-3171895767622959462012-09-08T21:34:20.154-07:002012-09-08T21:34:20.154-07:00Oops...your post was on a cervical cancer survivor...Oops...your post was on a cervical cancer survivor page not forum!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-49962567287182830992012-09-08T21:30:34.931-07:002012-09-08T21:30:34.931-07:00I just stumbled upon your blog from reading your p...I just stumbled upon your blog from reading your post on a cervical cancer forum. <br /><br />Thank you for sharing your story! Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-25440868105158211422009-09-09T09:18:21.347-07:002009-09-09T09:18:21.347-07:00You are very right, the emotional scars are the wo...You are very right, the emotional scars are the worst sometimes because people expect when it's physically over, that you should just accept it and life go on as normal. I too am a survivor, Thank GOD, but emotionally its hard.Lisahttp://www.worldofsportsmom.wordpress.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-23281150933672785102009-08-25T10:33:04.914-07:002009-08-25T10:33:04.914-07:00Thanks for sharing your story. You are helping a l...Thanks for sharing your story. You are helping a lot of people getting this all out in the open.Michellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05424336265089036857noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-66417388407805257942009-06-08T13:56:24.538-07:002009-06-08T13:56:24.538-07:00Meaghan, thank you for these posts and for sharing...Meaghan, thank you for these posts and for sharing your story. You're an amazing fighter and an inspiration. I'm so glad to have met you through Spirit Jump. What an amazing woman you are!!!!Paulahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10941374942079469929noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-69485955453840602552008-12-11T12:08:00.000-08:002008-12-11T12:08:00.000-08:00Your feelings of guilt really resonated with me. I...Your feelings of guilt really resonated with me. I lost my mom to cancer (or chemotherapy side-effects rather) in October, almost exactly one year after my brother died. I know she felt a great deal of guilt for all we were suffering with her. Our lives are changed forever, but maybe not for the worst. I feel like a part of me was asleep when life was easy and now I am awake. I see the value of life and people I care about. I see the littleness in the big things and the bigness in the little things. I'm more compassionate and sensitive. My mom's cancer did change me and I'd be lying if I said I didn't wish that it never happened, but also that the change it brought into my life was overall a positive one that was too powerful to have happened any other way. <BR/><BR/>Everyone who loves you suffers with you, but maybe they're learning something valuable about life in the process.Wendyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08511672224216083343noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-58672732539743327952008-09-08T23:30:00.000-07:002008-09-08T23:30:00.000-07:00I spent quite some time reading your blog and I th...I spent quite some time reading your blog and I think you're great fighter! I wish you speedy recovery. <BR/><BR/>If you read my blog, I've mentioned about my youngest sister who is 35 years old. Doctors discovered that she has stomach cancer this year Feb and now it is only 9 Sep 08. Her condition is very very bad and she is suffering so much from all the treatments and she just can't eat, she vomited blood. I'm so sad. Doctors gave her only 1-2 more months. In this kind of circumstances, we can only pray that God give her the strength and courage to go through this super difficult trial, and whatever is the outcome, we've to accept that it is the best from God.<BR/><BR/>In God's prayer.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-84884606524143541232008-09-02T10:43:00.000-07:002008-09-02T10:43:00.000-07:00"There are also the hidden emotional wounds. The l..."There are also the hidden emotional wounds. The loss of self, anxiety of the future, fear of the unknown and absolutely terrifying reality that it could come back!"<BR/>these are MY words, cutie!<BR/>as u already know i was lucky and my cancer was still encapsulated when they found out...my doc told me in april i am "healthy again"...ok. great. maybe my body is healthy again..but all that fear...i had conisation biopsy #1...and had a bad feeling afterward as if i would know that this wasnt all..exactly 2 weeks later i had conisation biopsy #2 ..everytime under general anesthetic...and then had to stay at home for 5 weeks and i didnt wanna see anybody..i am so thankful my parents came by every day and had a look for me..but..i didnt wanna talk..didnt wanna listen to somebody..i tried to get it right in my mind what i was going through..i know it might sound weird since i had a "prestage cancer" ..thats how they call it ova here.and ppl tell ya"oh well..it was ONLY a prestage cancer"...fu*** that..it was CANCER..the only thing i was lucky with : it wasn't spreading at that time already..!<BR/>and now i am sitting here..<BR/>..i am "healty"...i broke up with a guy before having the surgeries..since that i DIDN'T DATE anybody..i haven't had sex with anybody..i have been SCARED like hell to use tampons...i have been SCARED to go swimming...!!!<BR/>all these lil things u NEVER EVER worried about before..ALL these lil things are crossing ur mind..and i asked myself questions like: will it do something to it, when i use a tampon? could the water have an influence...? ALTHOUGH i got told from my doc i can do all that again..today, yes i am using tampons again..i have been swimming again...but i am still afraid of having sex again..well, i dont have a bf right now..but one of these days i will find "my man"..and u can bet ur a*** HE WILL HAVE TO HEAR that story..before he will be able to touch me...cuz i wanna make sure he knows how scared i am ...it might sound stupid for all the other ppl out there who havent been in such a situation..but i am pretty sure you know what i am talking about.<BR/>its this fear in your head...<BR/>everytime i feel a lil tweak inside down there i start thinking again!<BR/>i am pretty sure i had such tweaks before already..but i havent had a cancer prestage before!!!<BR/><BR/>and the worst email i received only a couple of days ago came from a guy who calls himself " a friend " and because i wasn't answering to some of his emails and told him before "i need some time for myself"..since i am still carrying this fear inside of me and i am trying to wake women up and TALK about it..i NEVER said i would have been soooo sick i was about to die..I AM NOT LYING about that...so he wrote:<BR/>"its news to me that you where ever close to or possibly going to die. if your lil bastard as you call it, had been worse they would have just done a hysterectomy. ok then you couldnt have kids but life goes on. lots of women dont have kids these days, we cant always get what we want. i know this all to well. as far as cancer goes well lots of people get that, no biggie."<BR/><BR/>DO U THINK I STILL CALL THAT GUY A FRIEND?????<BR/><BR/>*HUGS*Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-10811320598054085212008-08-29T21:44:00.000-07:002008-08-29T21:44:00.000-07:00Yes I feel most all of that too. I somewhat feel l...Yes I feel most all of that too. I somewhat feel like it has left me with Post Tramatic Stress Syndrome. Of course the Doc has a pill for that too. <BR/><BR/>TammieAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-71521510970566580122008-08-28T22:27:00.000-07:002008-08-28T22:27:00.000-07:00You know, i have really run new people in my life ...You know, i have really run new people in my life off, because I try to put up a different persona of myself, for the fact that if I truly share with them my feelings, They will leave anyway..I dont want to seem needy and I dont want to be vulnerable to more hurt and disappointment.I feel as cancer survivors we have had enough!! I so admire you!!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-65661629143168902192008-08-28T20:44:00.000-07:002008-08-28T20:44:00.000-07:00I can definitely relate to this post!I can definitely relate to this post!Obsessedwithlifehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02380238318591492257noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-24312755675980451562008-08-28T17:44:00.000-07:002008-08-28T17:44:00.000-07:00Here's the thing.....cancer has opened our eyes an...Here's the thing.....cancer has opened our eyes and we've lost our innocence. We now know that our lives can change in an instant. But you know what? Everyone's life can change in an instant; we're just more attuned to it and maybe it's good that we realize it is a possibility. Yes, sometimes ignorance is bliss, but I think it's more important to live each day feeling like it's a gift and loving your friends and family like there is no tomorrow. Just my two cents.....Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-68233683779617022572008-08-28T17:05:00.000-07:002008-08-28T17:05:00.000-07:00You are a superstar in my lifeYou are a superstar in my lifeShakenFruithttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16610510639503105279noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-54528166083091005172008-08-28T15:42:00.000-07:002008-08-28T15:42:00.000-07:00I know EXACTLY what you are felleing and going thr...I know EXACTLY what you are felleing and going through! I'm here for you if you need anything! :)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6689735678964373295.post-76585542083261728592008-08-28T13:16:00.000-07:002008-08-28T13:16:00.000-07:00Thank you for speaking the words so many of us str...Thank you for speaking the words so many of us struggle with.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.com